Shall I not squander the blessing of breath

In two days I get to goto Israel with my best friends. I’m going to film a movie, but I’m not going to make the shoot stressful. The only expectation I’m putting on myself is to collect B-roll for my film. The interviews and meat of the film will be shot back here in the states. In a way, i’m going on a vacation to the promise land. I’m going to let it serve as my muse as I live in the moment and soak it all in.

I realized yesterday that my whole life is a vacation. I do what I love to do as a career, having all the time freedom to serve those around me and have fun. Totally open and free to do Gods will for my life. Most people work a job they hate, with a beach as their screen savers, waiting on the 1 week a year they get permission to leave and come chill by the water in Flordia.

They live for a vacation. I’m living a vacation.

This is my everyday life. Blue skies, sunshine, palm trees, God fearing friends all around me. I’m not exactly sure how it happened, but God has blessed me with a dream life. No bosses telling me what to do. No schedule, but the one I make for myself. Totally flexible to go with the flow. Living the retired lifestyle at 23.

First time making Sheppards Pie, it was SOOO good.

Yesterday I was slightly downcast by memories of the not so distant past, I decided to leave my desk and go talk to my Mama. We spoke for 2 hours until remembering that Gods in control, everything happened for a reason and life is amazing. I came home and prepared a meal for my Nana. Precious time with my family that I wouldn’t trade for the world. Impossible to do if I had a normal / average life.

The powers of this world HATE this freedom. They want family’s separated and distant. States apart, focused on paying the bills. God values family connection over money.

I take nothing for granted. Everything I have is because The Lord willed it to be so. I only have this life of true freedom, because I am committed to honoring Yahweh in all I do. I have to remind myself the reward of my obedience is not the end goal, but just an outcome of my fear of Him. I catch myself daily desiring more money for a Porsche, wishing my body looked more attractive faster, wanting a wife and kids, desiring to smoke pot. Am I spiritually bipolar or is this just being human? I don’t like being human, I just simply want to be a human being. Then God very quickly reminds me I’m exactly where I need to be and to be grateful for what I have TODAY.

He treats His children well, material things matter not, what I value from His inheritance the most is my peace and joy. I’m nowhere near perfect, yet His grace is so substantial He covers me in pure love. What a great model to follow for my future children.

In a world so focused on self. So focused on material wealth. So focused on more. Pulling us in so many directions, we live to plop down in the couch after a long day to get blasted with the substance of our choice. Drugs, alcohol, Instagram, sex, all in front of a screen displaying literal propaganda in the form of Hollywood entertainment. We’ve become distracted with a “grass is greener on the other side” mindset. Nobody is good enough, nothing is good enough, life can always be better with MORE.

I want nothing more in life then for it to end, followed by the words: “well done, my good and faithful servant”.

This blog was inspired by my meditation on the Word this morning.